that my count down at work has appeared
joyful; like the excitement prior to a vacation.
Mr. Lee also shared that I may have
scared some of my loved ones. Letting
them know that I was okay with dying,
apparently is not a comfort.
For me, surgery is scary. Like
my big sister, Mericia, used to say, you never know.
In truth, I live my life like you never know.
Don't leave home angry, tell people you love
them, and say you are sorry. Be vulnerable.
But if you love and must needs have desires,
let these be your desires: To melt and be like
a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
― Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet
I have traveled