I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
|Vintage Market, Turlock, CA|
Soon I will be flying out to Fort Worth.
It's been nine years since I have traveled
alone. For goodness sake, I have
four children spanning 20 years because
I like company.
This is the first time since I am this disabled.
I never rent a car so I will be counting
on public transportation.
The reservationist says my hotel
is only a block from the convention center.
A block, strikes fear in my heart.
I may not be able to walk a block
or walk the convention floor between
|Remnants of the Past|
My greatest downfall, I don't like
to ask for anything but especially help.
As a little girl of 5, I had to speak for my
parents, ask questions, ask for help.
To this day this strikes fear in my heart.
When I feel the related anxiety, I engage in
self talk. I speak English, I encourage my
heart and mind. My parents came across an ocean,
across this great land, without speaking
a word of English They were so
brave. I don't feel brave.